Questions of the day

This post isn't about writing; it's about the state of my life and questions I need to be asking myself.
I have been on a weight loss journey for over a year and have used an online program with great success. The questions are: When is it time to cut the cord? Or should I ever? Will I ever lose the last 8lbs? Do I care?
If I had to answer each of these this morning; the results would be:
Now. Yes. Don't really care. No and yes.
The last one is the most important one.
We measure our lives in failures whether we want to or not. We drown our successes with them. Stomping them out like wildfires because it is easier to strive for success than to maintain one.
I believe it is referred to as "resting on our laurels"
Are we at war? Yes, with ourselves.
The paranoia and fear that rises with the mear thought of unsubscribing to my diet program is astounding. It shuts my entire day down at times.
I also have a gym membership that must go.
Do I do both of these things at the same time?
Why not?
I can't attend the gym because of the new, "teach screaming children how to swim with parents yelling on the sidelines like they're at a tee-ball game" program they have put in practice.
Try unwinding in the not-so-warm-pool (a remodel took the warmth away) with that crowd next to you. Add the elevated chlorine levels burning your skin, and you just don't want to be there. The place did help me on my weightloss journey but things change.
Okay, I could attend and just don't want to be around the chaos. It's unsafe for all parties. I don;t think they could hear a child in need. With 7 CPR saves and 10 near saves (that's where they did not die but have no quality of life), and about the combined amount of fails. The "fails" stay with you more than the "nears" and way more than the successes. Just like life, except you can walk away from a job.
Rule: Never walk away in life. Never quit. Never give in. Never, never, never.
Next question:
Why if I outline a story, do I feel like I have written it and move on to another? I am not ging to stick to an outline because it is more like brain dumping.
Two weeks ago, I learned that I am not alone in this; hence, pantsers are born.
I need help page by page and have a wonderful tough group who helps with this.
It is my head that acts like a high-speed blender and attacks my work. Learning to concentrate on the "KISS" principle in my work would be grand.
More than likely in my life as well.
Peace out and write on,

The way life looks.

Update:
Went to gym. Apparently, I was not the only complaining. Mornings are "adults only" received a free month to see if I want to stay. I have given me a week to go twice or I quit.
Online diet? Same thing. Free month to gradually wean myself off of the program.

Do I feel a sense of accomplishment?
Hells no.

Sometimes life doesn't let us sever ties as quickly as we would like.

Peace and love.